Empathy or empath?

The emotional energy surrounding and around me was overwhelming with fear and excitement, joy and love...there was no way I should be here...I could feel the uncomfortable sensations first in my heart and chest....it began to ripple and travel through my body...tension ensued into my brow and jaw...my gut began to feel empty and my mind started racing...it manifested in me then in my words and behavior...I became snappy and uncontrollably mean...
This was me just this weekend at Milan airport...

Only when I took myself more into me and my body was I able to soften and evaluate the anxiety that had developed within me.

Its not about flying, I’m comfortable when I have my headset on meditating, listening to music or watching movies. I love the feeling of take off and watching the world as we zoom into the sky…it’s not about crowds so much I live and travel in London daily on public transport which is one of the busiest commuter metropolis in the world…

It’s definitely the many various energies of other living and breathing beings, having intense emotions in large quantities whether sentient or not I feel what they feel. It has manifested several times over the last few years and notably during great times of loss. The burning of Notre Dame got me into a frenzy not because of the building, but because the amount of people that felt something so strong……again just recently with all the wildfires on Gaia (Mother Earth)

I’ve often felt an affinity with nature and it becomes really apparent when there are natural disasters in the world. I get emotionally attached to the situation and become anxious, fearful, angry and resentful at the world around me. I first noticed it when trees were being cut down close to where I used to work and live...this intense energy would manifest in my belly and I would become upset and angry. Earth quakes, tsunamis, volcano eruptions and mass death of living beings are especially difficult for me. 

I’ve also been known to sense when something is different in someone’s life…maybe it’s a gift? Maybe it’s more woowoo! My dear departed mum told me I had “the gift” (she called it) before she died. It comes and goes like the wind but now I know I feel it in my body first…I’m staying connected to me more and will work with that.

It’s not the first time I’ve took on the energy of the environment around me..it truly is one of the most uncomfortable and overwhelming experiences to be this kind of vampire empath....it’s like all the negative energies I was literally sucking into my whole being....

It’s not something I intended to do and I don’t even realize I’m doing it until it’s too late...only then I’m in the depths of feeling anxiety, anger, fear and loss and I am overwhelmed with the emotions of the world and others and literally feel it in my body being and spirit...I am now on a journey to understand this empathic ability and how to use it for the good. Now I know my triggers and am going to work on how to protect myself without feeling so with loss.

Do you or anyone you know also have these empathic abilities where you literally absorb emotional energies from nature and the human environments around you? How do you manage it? How does it manifest in you? 



public.jpeg